There are days when i feel like i have been so blessed.
there are other days when i feel like i just cant handle It.
working full time….
motherhood full time…
housework…. Practically full time.
yes my husband helps, he is wonderful.
but a mothers job is never done
there are no breaks, sick leave, holidays….
my children always want me and there are days when i just want to be by myself.
then the guilt comes…
you shouldnt feel that way…
Youre a bad mother…
but truth be told, all mothers feel like this.
we are just too afraid of the judgment that will come if we voice how we really feel.
The criticism…. The looks… The gossip…
i live in a place where the wealthy have nannies and maids
and the husbands have jobs that provide unlimited cash flow to the wife
who shops and complains and shops and goes to the gym.
i have my mum, bless her, who stays with us and cares for the baby while my husband and i work.
i have no nanny or maid.
we do the dishes ourselves, sweep, mop, do laundry….. On our own.
are you thinking, yeah so what?
well, try it with two kids and a salary you barely get by on every month.
its a blessing.
but its hard.
mind you, i think i would be bored if i were one of those wives…
with nothing to do but spend my husbands hard earned money.
i need a challenge.
and ive got it.
i wouldnt trade my life for all the money in the world.