Children

I never decided to have to have children
I decided to keep them though
They were the ones who decided to be born to me

And everyday
Having my heart split in three
And having the other two parts walking around outside my body…

I want to keep them with me all the time
Protect them

I complain of tiredness
Frustration
“It’s so hard looking after them…”

But honestly
When I’m alone
I don’t feel complete

And that is love
Unconditional love

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Good Enough

I’m never going to be good enough
I won’t ever reach your expectations
I make mistakes
I’m careless
I can irresponsible
It’s too little for you
I’m just not good enough

But what about what you don’t see
Refuse to see?
I’m so much more
Than a wife
A mother
A teacher
A friend

I am passionate
Loving
Generous

I try my best
I want to give my best
In all the little things I do

And if you don’t see that
Then there’s nothing I can do

Because I know my worth
And I am so much more than what you see

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You Don’t Know Me

You know my name
You know my family
We hang out
But how much do you know?
Really know?
Of my story
Of my pain

You see my smile
You assume I’m happy
Because why shouldn’t I be?
You don’t know that I’m fighting back tears
You don’t know my fears

You see my cuts
And you place me in a little box
To judge
She must have been this…
She must have done that…
You don’t see my scars
The ones that aren’t physically displayed
The ones that will never fade

You hear what I say
But you really listening
You don’t know what goes on in my mind
In my heart

And right back at you
I don’t know all of you
I assume as we’ll
I make judgments too
Forgive me when I do

I don’t know your story
I don’t know your pain
I cant feel your scars
I can’t read your mind

If you’d give me chance
I’d like to
And in turn
If you’re not too afraid
I’d like to show you too

This is not an open invitation
As I trust few
So don’t misuse
Abuse
Accept
Embrace
And let’s start a fabulous journey

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Mistakes

“Mistakes are proof that you are trying”

For most, mistakes are the end
No second chances
Sometimes not a third
You’re wrong
You’ve made a mistake
You’re bad

What would it be like living in a perfect worlds?
Where nobody made mistakes
Where nobody was wrong
Where everybody said the right thing and nobody ever had their feelings hurt
Where people fell in love once and stayed in love

Would there be arguments because everybody believed they were right?
Or would there be peace because nobody was wrong or did wrong?

Everybody makes mistakes
Love should withstand all these mistakes because that is the only way to grow

At least you’re trying
To better yourself
And you stumble
And fall
Sometimes repeatedly
And make mistakes
Sometimes the same ones

But at least you’re trying
And that should count for something.

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Waste of Space

Letting people
Who mean little to me
To whom I mean just as little
Live rent free in my mind

Taking over
Emotions

Why?
Waste of space
Waste of time
Waste of emotional energy

Time to be rid of it
To clear the clutter
To cleanse myself of the negativity
The people
The energies

Enough is enough

I’m done sharing my mind
Polluting it with others insanity

I’m done

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My Truth

Here is the truth

I am me

I am a mother
A wife
A daughter
A teacher
A friend

But I am still me

Only very recently
Did I become me

And I mean, everywhere, with everyone,
Me

My personality doesn’t change
Nor does my character

I perhaps am more tactful when I have to be

But I don’t change for anyone
Not to suit anybody’s else’s needs or expectations

This is who I am

If you ask me how I am
I will tell you

If you didn’t really want to hear my answer
Then why did you bother asking in the first place

Like it
Love it
Or leave it

I don’t have a gun to your head
I never asked you to stay
If you don’t like who I am
Then please
Um
Go away

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